The Bad of 2012

- no meal planning
- casual grocery shopping habits
- fell off the Paleo-eating wagon
- too much weight put on
- very little exercise (see: synovial cyst below)
- no tracking (food, supplements, exercise) 
- too much stress
- too much alcohol
- too much work
- too much time on the PC
- not enough time outdoors/in the garden/in the sunshine
- too little crafting
- too little, but then again too much, sleep
- too much clutter and messiness

- not enough self care
- too little happiness


All of these were, of course, related to the three major events of the year. Whether some of them should have escalated to the level they did is another matter but in the end it all distills down into the last two points.

The majority of it relates to weight, food and exercise - an indication of just how much all that means to me. The cyst made exercise impossible (hell some days I couldn't even get my knickers on without crying in pain). No exercise led to indiscriminate and bad eating habits (quantity as well as quality).

Too much work and too little play (in the form of gardening, being outsoors and hobbies) led to too much alcohol, the wrong sort of sleep and too much stress.

Just not enough self care and too little happiness.

Still, writing down the bad has clarified what needs to be done to make me feel good. This week is still quite quiet at work so one by one I'll attack and discuss the list above in order to create some Resolutions (or goals if you dislike the term) for 2013.

2012-2013

I think there must be a certain number of people every year who, for various reasons, can't wait to get to the new year. This year I'm one of them. Not because the year has merely been 'blah', but because it's been downright awful. Bowel cancer (husband), intraspinal synovial cyst (me) and setting up a new venue (me). Sickness, worry and stress have consumed our lives since April 2 and yes, I'm just about done with all of it.

In 2013 it will continue on - 1 more chemo treatment for D followed by a scope at the end of January to see how things are healing and the stoma reversal sometime in Feb/Mar/Apr hopefully. I finish clinical Pilates next week as well then there'll be a session to evaluate my progress and take it from there I guess. The new venue is settling in, a couple of big points still to be resolved but (again) hopefully the days of working 6 days/70 hours a week are over.

That's a broad overview of what's going to happen but of course there's so much more to go along with it. There are some broad goals for the year, some fairly specific ones but mostly I need to 1. get back in control and 2. live in the moment. Point 1 will help lead to Point 2 I think. In what's probably a weird way to go about it, I'm next going to list what's WRONG with life in order to find ways and means of making it RIGHT.